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[Jul. 22nd, 2006|12:11 am] |
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so ive come to realize that life isnt gonna be the way it used to. people lie. poeple get hurt. people have to deal with bullshit excuses because the person on the other end is afraid to say how they really feel. people never get what they really want. people think they have it all when one day they realize it was nothing and it doesnt even matter now. it was an experience and it was only in the moment. no, im not talking about love. i have yet to experience love. im happy that ive have yet too because i still have alot to learn and im not ready for that. not everything is about boys, girls. sadly, i am this person. and i dont like who ive become. im sick of lies. im sick of trying when nobody is responding on the other end. im sick of caring about image. what does it matter? its all just competition for all the wrong reasons. if you are unhappy with your image, stop complaining and do something about it. and only do something if its for you. dont do it because you think no guy or girl will like you. trust me, just because your not the one everyboody is staring at at the party doesnt mean there isnt someone out there for you. the people at the party just think that that someone is hott and just want to get in their pants. the person out there for you, thinks your beautiful and wants to get in your heart. im sick of caring when nobody even cares that i care. im sick of people acting like they care. im sick of giving advice to the ones i love when they ask for it but don't use. it feels like it goes in one ear and out the other. a waste of breath, energy, and truthfulness. im sick of trying to be someone i dont like just to fit in. im sick of hurting poeple. the ones i love especially. im sick of not knowing who i can trust. i know who my true friends are. or at least i thought i did. im not asking for anyone to feel sorry for me, i just want you to realize all this so its not you who is screwed over and left feeling empty and alone in the end. things change. some for better. some for worse. hopefully yours can be for the better. i know mine will be. for my self at least. i bet your wondering how this all came out...ask your self this one question.."who am i?" maybe you can answer it alot better then i could. |
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| im bacckkk |
[Jan. 8th, 2006|11:13 pm] |
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hello again lj |
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[Aug. 9th, 2005|01:57 pm] |
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Remember when getting high meant swinging at the playground. the worst thing you could get from boys was cooties. mom was your hero and dad was the boy you were going to marry. your worst enemies were your siblings. race issues were who ran the fastest. war was a card game. the only drug you knew of was cough medicine & wearing skirts didn`t mean you were a slut. The only thing you smoked was the tires on your bike. the only thing that hurt was skinned knees & the only things that can get broken were your toys. life was simple and care free, what i remember the most was wanting to grow up. But what do we do now that we are growing up? |
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| this is lo |
[Dec. 23rd, 2004|11:01 pm] |
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whos birthday is tomorrow?oh that would be breann's so everyone wish her a happy birthday.♥ ireallyreally love you. |
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[Dec. 16th, 2004|02:08 pm] |
okay,it's breann add me first and ill add you lovers
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